What are we supposed to do?

On a day like this, the sun rose as usual; and as most days I dressed for work. As the old saying goes “The early bird gets the worm”, so did I get mine as I got in the office first. However, this worm is neither for my pocket nor my mouth; but for the brain. And I would like to share with you, for the worm is bigger than what I can mentally swallow.

The night before I had gotten news that a very beautiful lady, a model to be specific; had been murdered by her house boy and yet she had a wedding in a month. Few weeks ago, I learnt about the death of a father with her four children, and yet he had buried his first born several month before due to breathing dysfunction. The five died in a car accident and only the mother survived.

Today I tried to wear the mother’s shoes and see the world from her angle, and those of the model’s boyfriend. I didn’t mind much about the dead cause they are gone, and the problem remains with us who are still alive. Looking at things the mother had a life for her children, and the boy had plans with her girlfriend. So now that they are gone, what are they supposed to do? Start afresh?

That is not for me to ask actually, cause everyone carries his own luggage until there nothing to carry anymore. I looked back into my life to see what I have to show for it, and apart from my clothes, few books and a broken laptop; there was nothing. It does not mean that I’m not grateful for what I have done with my life, cause I have learned and got soft skills that help survive here on the ground. But all that will die with me in the ground.

I’m surrounded with people with big plans, and huge dreams. My job is to help them achieve those dreams, has been my job for sometime. Cause for me, I don’t know what I want, for what I want is something that remains even after I’m gone, something that will beat the test of time. And to be honest I don’t know what that is. All I know is, for what most people want, it takes sometime to get to it; but only a fraction of a second close to no time so it takes to loose it.

You know the most interesting thing about human beings, is how we gave definitions to everything yet nothing is defined. We created time and started planning basing on it. People will mostly ask you “Where do you see yourself in 5 years?”. I think a proper question should be “Where do you see yourself tomorrow?”. For we don’t know whether we shall even last that long.

So here fellow traveler of life, the worm I would like us to share is “What are we supposed to do?” with the life we’re given. Whoever is able to chew it, swallow it and the brain digests it; please tell me how. Cause if you go before me, at least you will exist a little longer in my world, within the realm of educators.